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Its my day off. In fact, I’m off all week! And its GREAT!

I had an idea on Twitter last night, to document my day off. Like Ferris Bueller, only with better hair, and shoes. And so it starts!

Woke up, 8.30. Something fell down the stairs. My son had dropped one of his rollerblades as he went down to play the xbox. I dont know why he was carrying them either.

I had to get up. Tea. Biscuits. Sofa. Requires no heels.

And Batfink pj’s. Obviously.

My mother in law died last year on this date.

We were not close, but certainly towards the end, we had a lot more affection for each other. She realised I wasn’t so bad, and I realised her annoying ways were just the things that made her who she was.

Her passing didn’t affect me so bad directly, but it affected those around me greatly. My husband and son, my father in law, and mother in laws elderly mum. To say the past year has been hard would be an understatement. It was my sons first family death, and he was almost 7 at the time. She was buried on my sons birthday, which made me feel like absolute shit. To be there for hubby, but not for my son? I can’t pick and choose between the men in my life like that, and I hope I never have to again.

My husband and his father are now all that is left of a very small family, and although me and my son double the numbers, its still teeny. So we have no excuses not to do things together, and now spend much more time talking, and just simply doing nothing with each other, but enjoying the company.

The worst part of today so far is that I only realised the date at about 10am. I didn’t give hubby a hug this morning, and tell him that I understand his loss, and I am here for him. I won’t see him now until 5. And I feel so so very bad about this.

Grieving never gets easier. It gets harder as the years go by and you struggle to remember someone’s face, their laugh, their mannerisms. You feel worse because you start to forget, and you swore you never would. So try not to grieve for loved ones, remember them with joy, and laughter in your heart, and don’t let sadness cloud your precious memories of them. But most importantly, enjoy them while they are still here. Because you can be certain that they won’t be forever.

Today I realised how bad I had been by not blogging! I really have no excuse, so consider my wrists slapped.

My wee lad was off school ill today and yesterday so I’ve had a little longer to get ready in the morning before rushing to work! Every cloud….! That extra 20 mins was a god send, and I even managed to wash my hair! It was an absolute state, embarrassing really! I’ve been experimenting with new products and you don’t know how it will leave your hair til you wake up next day, but by then its normally about 8.15 and I’ve no time for even the quickest wash, and its too thick with rubbish that dry shampoo wont work! I went for a bare minimum spritzing of Charles Worthington Dream Hair Finishing Shine Spray. Not fabulous, but quick and easy.

Today I’m wearing a great black dress from Debenhams, that I spotted on The Fashion Police a year ago, and I really dont wear it enough! Its very comfortable and versatile. Teamed with a pair of black tights, my new Anglomania heels, and handbag and fab necklace from one of my Twitter friends @CostumeJewels. The handbag is sold out now, but they have an amazing selection of other designer inspired bags, and of course this silver necklace! Free P&P on everything, I can’t help but treat my self on a regular occasion from this site! I hope you love it as much as I do!